Two year old tantrums...

Today has been one of those days where going to bed and pulling the doona up high occurred. It was a day where it didnt matter what I did, I wanted to throw a two year old tantrum.

For those who dont know, its beyond cold in Adelaide right now. Winter has reared its ugly head. I like the cold normally. Today I was angry at it. Its particularly freezing in the Adelaide Hills. We have had crazy winds, rain, hail and if you live near Mt Lofty, it snowed.  Yes, that cold. 

I honestly didnt wake up in a bad mood, I got out of the right side of the bed, I promise. However the mood went downhill when I went to go out this morning to run a few errands, namely get milk and pick up my magnetic trainer for my bike, which I was super excited about and have been waiting to come into the local bike store. They close at 12pm and MIL was due to arrive around 11am for a cuppa. It was 9:45am. I was wearing multiple Lorna layers and my beanie. I was frozen. I think my internal thermostat is broken. 

As it was so wet and windy, the Ute scares me to drive when it is like this so I thought Id take the Liberty (its a safer, all wheel drive car). However, as we had the cars parked under the house to protect from the weather, I had to reverse the Ute out to than get the Liberty out. No big deal you say. Not normally. 

Thanks to the magnitude of rain which Im sure excites older men as their rain gauges would have overflowed, the ground is particularly soggy. Actually soggy is an understatement. Its like you could get a jet ski out and have a fricken ball in the paddocks. Seriously, who needs the beach! 

I reversed the Ute out no issues, it was as I went to take it up to the second driveway that my good mood started to slip away rapidly. I got stuck in the mud. It was not pretty. No moving forward at all and backwards saw me hit the pine tree (thank god the metal tray is like a rock). I was spinning deeper and deeper. I cursed, called for hubby ninja to help to no avail. I had well and truly got the bastard stuck. In our own driveway. I award myself my own dickhead award. 

If it couldnt get worse, that is when it decided to HAIL. 

Thank god MIL was coming, I called her and asked her to bring the 4x4. We needed help. She came to the rescue. Bless her cotton socks. 

So needless to say errands werent run, my trainer is still at the bike store and Im still cold. 

The mood didnt end there. 

After MIL rescued us and left for home, I made us some lunch. I than burnt my tongue making noodles for hubby ninja. Shit just was not working for me today. Everything I was doing ended up in hurting myself. I stubbed my cold feet, I walked into a door frame, my hands hurt coz i was so cold. A two year old tantrum was about to occur. I was folding washing in the bedroom and I may of thrown some folded socks at the wall. Hubby Ninja suggested I needed to go back to bed for a bit. I didnt argue. I turned the electric blanket on high, crawled into the bed, pulled the doona over my head and I shivered. I must of got warmish at some stage and fell asleep for a nanna nap. I woke up in a better mood.

Hows your Saturday been?

Hope your staying warmer than me!

Crazy weather and clothing kilos!

Morning Ninjas! How is everyone this fine, cold, windy morning!? I personally, gained about 5kg - in clothing. Today I am very grateful for my extensive Lorna collection and grateful its Friday Casual Day at work or AKA Lorna wearing day for me!

Todays attire is testing how many layers of Lorna I can wear. Im wearing Amy Tights underneath my flashies, purple tank, black long sleeve with a pink hoodie over it all, grey scarf (not lorna, need to fix that I think haha) and over all of that, my big black jacket which keeps the wind and rain off me (my absolute favourite this time of year as the hood is HUGE and keeps the rain off me!). Its at this time of year that I realise how much "insulation" I had in previous years and that instead of fat, I now have "clothing kilos". At least its easy to lose weight right!? Take a layer off. LOL. Easiest weight loss to date :)

Elevator selfie :)

For my readers who are not in Adelaide, well it was a wild, woolie, rainy night in our little state. Little ole SA received a bashing from Mother Nature and Adelaide Hills copped it! At one stage yesterday afternoon at work, I thought I may not have had any power due to it. Some would go - eh whats the issue? Use candles. You would be correct and Im well prepared, however my whole house requires it. No power = no water at all, as unlike you city folk who have mains, we are on tank with a pump! Which also means no loo.... I may of definitely been "roughing it!". Hubby Ninja has been insisting (and failing) I try camping...he may of got his wish last night! 

SA Power Networks website were advising that power was lost at 1.05pm yesterday and may not be back on to 11:15pm!! Needless to say, because of their awesomeness, my power was restored at 5:15pm. I say that they definitely earned their wage over the past 24 hours and my beanie goes off to them as well as the SES and the CFS volunteers! Amazing work by amazing people! Keep rocking!

Project Reno proved to me also, that even though on stilts, surrounded by many trees etc and needing extensive renovation work, that she is as strong as ever! YOU GO GIRL! Love my house! I was unable to get a picture before I left this morning of the destruction in the yard because it was pitch black when I left, however as an indication, we had to move a number of branches (large ones) before we could reverse the ute out from under the house! Only upside is there will be plenty of kindling around for the woodfire for me to collect and I got an upper workout in before 6:30am!

So toasty!

So TGIF - what have you got planned for the weekend?

At what point do you stop caring?

Freedom of Speech

Definition: The right to express any opinion without censorship or restraint.

Overtly sensitive people, whats your take on them? 

Me personally, Im over it. Get your shit together. If you dont like whats written, than dont read it, scroll down, continue on. Its what normal people do. If you sit and read it, than take responsibility for how you feel about it. Don't past blame or take the easy road of blaming someone else for your feelings. Last time I checked, your responsible for your actions and how you feel. Blaming someone is a cop out.

Like my blog? awesome, we must be one of the normal people, the type of person i generally associate with. The lover of life, who couldnt give a shit about moany murtles.

Remember, she lives in the girls 'bathroom'...

Don't like it? Than my response is don't read it. End of story. I don't force you to sit there and read it, i didn't tie you to a chair and say READ IT. Yes I rant about fat kids, yes I think its your responsibility at the end of the day to live how you want to live and yes you may not agree with shit I say, but ask me if I care? 

Last time I checked, we lived in a country that allowed this, so why than must we restrict what we feel because of hurting another when the intention was clearly not that? I cant control how a person will interpret whats said, so why must I be quiet because of it?

Maybe its because I'm getting older that the bullshit that goes with some people, I just don't care anymore. Ive grown up with my fair share of drama creators, that honestly, I couldn't give a shit anymore. It caused me to many headaches and heartaches that you get tough from it. Its not a world issue. I have bigger things to worry about than whether you like what Ive said or not. Call me a bitch, I honestly take it as a compliment.

I dont have time for people who are rude (regardless of race may I add), condescending, a misery guts and try and find someone to pin point the blame ("oh no Im being bullied") when clearly they aren't looking at the bigger picture as to WHY people are over there bullshit. It may seem easier to play the victim, but tell me, where does that really get you? You may have a small amount of supporters, but the rest are clearly over it now but its still easy for you to pin the blame on one because they are more opinionated than others.  Awesome work there sunshine. I know I can sleep at night, can you? 

Oh and why your at it, stop telling yourself their jealous of you. Their not, they are just over it. Jealousy doesn't even come close to how people feel. That is the reality. People live in it, some people should simply try.

As my father says, life is to short to deal with the pus, so why would you bother? Im starting to come around to his way of thinking. If you cant make an effort with me, I cant be bothered with you. You causing me issues and want to play the loop de loop with your issues, play the blame game, your not a person I want in my life. and you know what, Im comfortable with that. I sleep a night soundly. I dont need the reassurance of others to feel comfortable in my own skin. 

Your all probably wondering where the hell this has come from. Its okay, this still applies to general real life. Its been brewing a while. Its kinda why Ive been a bit quiet on here (oh and uni, fulltime work and actually having a life!). Its also stemmed from the fact that Im just over people. Hubby Ninja commented the other day, on the fact he is glad I finally grew some imaginary balls (not real ones, I think he would be a tad concerned). I was getting hurt by to many people. I was the proverbial door mat. Still letting people walk all over me, still running to everyones aid, only to never receive the same back. As Ive got older, Ive started to care less and learn to trust my instincts. Im not here to please everyone. Like me or hate me, makes no difference to me. 

They say when your 29, its the transitional year (Saturn Returns). Its is the life transition that brings restructuring, and often lots of change. I believe it. I know so far I have gone through many changes, restructuring how I live and want to continue living my life and accepting the stuff I cant change. 

So at the end of the day, you love me or you hate me but know, if you dont like me, thats okay. I dont expect everyone to like me. 

And for those that love and appreciate me, you are the lucky ones ;)

 

Color my world with rainbows!

So yesterday was Color Run in Adelaide and OMG did I have an absolute BALL!! Seriously, if you have color run coming to your capital, do it! You wont regret it! 

This is fruitchoc ninja and me at the beginning - all clean and white (with awesome tutu's!)

How cute do we look!?

It was a sold out event in Adelaide. Last word I heard, it was over 10k people running with rainbows! AMAZING!!

For those who have never heard of color run (seriously do you live under a rock?), basically the aim of the run is to just have fun and get covered as much as possible in COLOR! At each 1km, you go through a color station where you are sprayed, squirted, rolled (whatever you please really) in that particular colour!

First up was ORANGE!

Than BLUE!

Next was PINK! LOVE ME SOME PINK!

 

Next was YELLOW!

and just when you think its all over....

They hand you this sucker....

SCORE - I GOT A PINK ONE!! WOHOO!

and you use this to go crazzzyyyyy in the color arena/pit whatever you wanna call it!!!

PARTY!

Us at the end of it all!

Rockstars I reckon!! and the best bit? Blowing your nose for the rest of the day and out comes rainbows! Who thought I was a unicorn under it all hey!? haha :)

I had a shower when I got home and though...mmm there aint much in my hair, it can wait til tomorrow before I go to work (secretly I was hoping it would stain the crap out of it and Id have awesome hair!) and  this morning, I found this on my pillow.....

Opps! oh well, I do the washing anyways! 

So how tell me, did you do the color run? What was your favourite part?

PS I have finally finished my final essay for uni and submitted! HAL-I-FRICKEN-LUYA! Its like a massive weight is off my shoulders I tell ya! Oh and I got my oral presentation mark back, 18.20 out of 20....I think I passed ;)

Being grateful and WWW

The one thing that I seriously love about this program, and cannot put money on, are the friendships I have made. I have made some truely amazing friends with people who understand the struggles I sometimes go through, we hold each other up when one of us is down and we stand by each other no matter what.

I have meet a few of my now very close friends through the program and they mean the absolute world to me. They dont judge me when I have a silly moment (just refer to me as a dickhead, laugh and move to the next stupid thing), they embrace and love when the filter between my mouth and brain has a malfunction, they encourage me to pursue my dreams and they acknowledge and understand the word RESPECT. These people truely mean the absolute world to me and they know exactly who they are!

CHEERS TO A FREAKN WEEKEND! :)

On a special note today - Broken Leg Ninja - You made me get a guts workout with the laugh today!! Keep that shit up seriously!

Okay enough of the soppy shit

Things have been rather wet at Project Reno and Ive been head down bum up trying to work through my final essay for this subject. Its worth 50% of my mark, so shit got serious. I haven't joined the gym yet but my food has pretty much been spot on! I managed to lose 600g in 3 days so Im doing something right (idiot me forgot weigh in Wednesday, I was halfway through washing my hair and cursed myself for forgetting thus was completed on the Thursday!). Weekly Ill put my WWW details here Ive decided so, without further ado...

START: 76.4kg

Week 1: 75.8kg

Loss: 600g

This weekend is a busy one. Tomorrow will see me doing an SSS outside with hubby whilst we lift heavy wood and do a massive clean out in the wood shed. Yes this is not your normal classification for an SSS however instead of weights, Im lifting large tree trunks, using an axe and basically being all farm girlish. Ill wear my rubber zebra boots - Ill take a photo to show you later :P. Ill even wear my HRM to see what I burn!

**singing ** BURN BABY BURN!

Sunday is COLOR RUN!!!! WOHOOO!! So excited for this. Be prepared to see loads of COLORFUL photos! 5km of glorious fun laughter and smiles! Cant wait. 

Tell me, whatcha grateful for and whats your plans for this freak'n weekend?

 

Fat Girl Glasses!

Soooo I have been AWOL, I apologies profusely but Im back and ready to smash out this round. Round 2, 2013 has began. Its my anniversary round and this one I plan to smash wide open. Why you ask? Well because I can but also because ADELAIDE finally got a finale, and boy are we excited!

So my major goal for this round - to get below my goal weight of 70kg and wear this dress to finale with some killer heels:

Its my Karen Millen dress which I was totally devo I didnt get into for the round 4 finale in Brisbane. But I am totally getting into that dress for the Adelaide Finale, so watch this space! My plan also is to keep you up to date on my journey, whether from stories of what Im up to, recipes I may come up with, my rants (generally entertaining!) and all my other ramblings in between about my life or things I hear or see! I promise I wont bore you and if I do, Ill show you funny or cute pictures? Deal? :)

Things have been bananas with me. Ive moved from concrete jungle and finally at Project Reno, I have been overseas to Thailand and rocked my bikini, Im half way through Semester 1 for Uni and even though been stressed over it, Im really enjoying it.and I did Mothers Day Classic with my Auntie, who is an amazing adopted mum for the day! I also did it with her last year and think it will be our yearly thing we do together (even though I do a heap of other runs with her, this one is spesh). Last year we had our photo together and so this year I wanted another to mark the occasion but also to do a comparison for my own head. I seriously  still have days where I think I am still wearing my fat girl glasses and I still feel as big as I use to and than I saw this....

No wonder Im cold at the moment, my insulation has disappeared!!! I actually managed to run most of this (besides two hills which I simply couldnt push my hip to do) and finished in 30.59. Which is bloody brilliant considering I do 5km in about 38mins so Im pretty happy with the time based on no running training for four weeks (except loads of walking and sweating in Thailand and lifting boxes etc!)

Whilst Im showing you comparisons, heres another one!

It takes you to reflect on your old photos to really take off your fat girl (or bloke glasses for my male readers!) to really take note of how far you really have come! I cannot stress enough for the newbies, whether your reading this as a 12wbt member or someone who is starting out in their weight loss journey outside of a program, TAKE BEFORE PICTURES!!! Its uncomfortable, you think WHY am i doing this, but trust me, you will regret it when you lose a heap of weight and want to look back!

So for my new readers, wondering about why Dream Believe Achieve NINJA? - read this post - http://dreambelieveachieveninja.blogspot.com.au/2012/12/so-why-ninjawell-why-not.html

Also for those wondering what Im doing at Uni, because of my journey and my passion for all things health related, particularly childhood obesity, I decided to do a Bachelor of Science (Health Promotion). So I may start randomly talking about odd things Ive read!

If you want to know anything about myself, my journey or simply wanna say heya, how ya doin!? than dont forget to comment! I do my best to respond to all! I know I have readers, so let yourself be known! Tell me about yourself and how your journey is going! Id love to hear from you!

Well thats it for now! Ill fill you on the past weeks in future posts - I have some gorgeous pics of my holiday and Project Reno (well not so gorgeous, but its a diamond in the rough...well Im telling myself this anyways!)

Catcha Ninjas!

Feeling a bit flat and a bit of failure!

*Warning - rant and rambles to follow - sorry if it makes no sense*

Im feeling very deflated. 

This weekend has been one of many bad choices. Yes it was easter, but that really shouldnt be the excuse? or is it?

I feel like my whole world right now is one big excuse, between working full time, uni externally, between houses (concrete jungle during the week/project reno on weekends), trying to get things sorted, moving and keeping organised, not having really a set routine because everything right now is adhoc (i havent had a gym membership since we sold the last house)...I feel like the dream of getting to the magic number of 70kg is just so distant! I wanted to be 70kg by the time we went to Thailand, the dream of being confident in my bikini blah blah blah. Im 19 days away and yet Im still 5kg away, and after this weekend of not having a real chance to plan food etc, once again adhoc choices, Im probably 5.5kg from goal...GAH What the hell am I doing?

I dunno whether Im at mental road block. I feel like Im constantly fighting my own mind. Ive got comfortable and Im back to the scared to push phase. Its 5kg for Lorna sake, its not brain surgery Sensai, you can do this...

Than I do stupid things. Like skip exercise because Im trying to do uni, or oh its easter, look theres chocolate and binge eat. WTF! I know its wrong and yet Im doing it. Its like there is another person taking over and as much as I know its not right, opps there I go again!

That inner teenager. She is a real bitch you know! She is my own worse enemy...oh wait thats me...

This weekend consisted of lots of work at project reno, I havent stopped til I went to bed, its been GO GO GO and we have accomplished so much, I should be happy, I should be excited. 

I should be....and yet all I keep thinking about is...your still 5kg away from goal. You have been for about 6 months, Thailand was a goal, I should have smashed it wide open...and I havent. 

I feel like an utter failure. 

19 days, gotta change this damn mindset, back to drawing board. Time to write down EVERYTHING again, start from scratch. I have 19 days to make a bloody dent in this 5kg. 

I have to make a dent. Maybe a I need a big "Mish" kick up the arse!? 

I CAN DO THIS. Make me accountable peeps. I will report in daily, what I have eaten, what exercise I have done. If I dont, give me a verbal slapping please! I need it!

I have to remember where I have come from and stop beating myself up. You can do this Sensai! Dont give up now, your giving in to them. Why give them the satisfaction!? They dont deserve to see you down. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off. 

Tomorrow is a new day. I can do this....no I WILL do this...

As Lorna says - NEVER GIVE UP! She is a wise one I tell ya!